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Entangled in preparation

Something I notice about myself, I a very slow to pull the trigger. I like to marinate on things for a long time, I like to make sure all of the details are just right.

Something I notice about my daughter (and parenting in general), there really is no wiggle room for this. My daughter is at that great toddler age where her interests are vast and her attention is fleeting. You know the time where you finally get into listening to the same song 8 times a day, just created a new dance routine and all of the sudden it’s “no, no, no, no, not that one,” *face palm.*

Yes, those are the times in which we are engaged.

Well, I may have found a great way to a happy medium. She begins her more pointed homeschooling on Monday. I wrote out a very loose themed calendar, with 4 potential themes a month/a theme each week, loosely related to the time of year and the three letters of the month. I say loosely because for instance, last month we were working on her letter “K” and this month, our first focus letter is “A” and whenever I ask her to write an “A”, the page typically looks like the doodles of a white supremacist child doodling on their page during their first propaganda lesson… KKK AK KKK AK

So, I have that calendar prepped as a back up of sorts. As a lead Preschool Teacher and Kindergarten Instructor, I was required to plan the month (or at least 1-2 weeks) in advance. Sometimes it worked out perfectly, other times, a week would go by before any of the topics piqued the attention of the children. It is actually kind of counter-intuitive to what I learned about early childhood education, as we were taught to create lessons geared towards a child’s interest. How do you plan a month in advance when that age group drop best friends and favorite toys just about daily. Granted it is really not possible to do that with 12-20 three-year-old children in your class anyway, but that is another story altogether. I just know that based on how she is feeling that day, certain activities will be more favorable to her.

So, I am gathering free resources from as many different organizations and businesses as I can while this CV still has the world gripped in its net, to create her lesson plans for the future. Free scholarly articles, subscriptions, content, books, etc. I actually have more actual lesson plans/ideas for her middle school aged learning, than I do for her start on Monday.

Because she is only four, where I live she is technically starting 2 years early, so I am starting her out very slowly so we can be all the way into a groove by the time we are required to be fully immersed in the process, legally anyways.

I am excited to see how Monday’s 1.5 hours of schooling goes and where her interests and imagination takes us. These are the last days…


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Country learning

I earned my baking wings.

For years, I’ve had an interest in baking with the full support of the internet and Pinterest at my fingertips. But alas, I could not take that step. I guess I was not as interested as I thought I was *shoulder shrug.*

Rewind to my trip to my father’s new farm and spending the summer learning what country living was truly barking. I will make another post detailing that trip – but back to the fire box… baking.

I had always wanted to expand my home maker abilities in this realm, but I feel like I was maybe a bit intimidated and felt that if I failed out the gate, my interest would cease to exist. Thankfully for me, my bonus mother is an outstanding cook, baker, home maker, artist, creator, fixer… among other awesome attributes – but back to the… baking.

I mentioned casually that I have been wanting to learn to bake and she jumped right on it saying she would love to scaffold me through the process and they were making Challah in a couple days. The day came and she called me to the kitchen to assist, I thought.

Wrong. I was going to be the one doing it.

Well, I made my first bread (first image top right) which turned out amazing and I have been honing in on my craft ever since. Granted, she LITERALLY was right there walking me through the entire process and practically had everything laid out for me to just focus on the process.

Challah, French Bread, croutons, garlic bread, pizza, and the newest video she shared with me – blueberry scones. I am looking forward to life after the cleanse when I can dabble back in the goupy flour mess. Alas, a cleanse is calling my name. So, until the end of the year – Friday will be my last bread making hurrah as I make pizza with four of my nephews and my daughter.


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I did a thing…

I tried making yellow curry for the first time tonight. I figured I had all the ingredients I needed at home already, and I did ūüôā

It came out… OK… but I know that for me, I need 3 experimental tries before I perfect a recipe to my liking, no matter if it is one that I made up or one that I found online to expand my repertoire. The first try is to taste what it was designed (or thought) to taste like. Next attempt is to make minor adjustments to cook time & ingredients. The 3rd is to ensure that what I learned from the first two attempts stuck and I can replicate moving forward quicker, better, and catered to my family’s pallets and restrictions.

What I learned from the recipe I briefly reviewed to make this dish:

  1. Yay me for having all the ingredients on deck!
  2. If I double or triple the liquid/stock of the recipe, I MUST at least add 75% more of ALL other ingredients *face palm* Did I multiple the liquid by 2.5 and only barely add a few more shakes of the seasonings and curry just before I added? Possibly.
  3. Next time only add double coconut, only about 25% more veggie broth to keep it rich & more of that awesome coconut tang and the end of the bite.
  4. Instead of using 1.5 cans of the organic coconut milk – add a whole can of coconut creme and half a can of the coconut milk (or a bit more) to thicken the consistency, and again, that tang.
  5. Instead of cooking the veggies most of the way prior (boiled the potatoes and carrots), cook them half to 25% and let them simmer in the curry longer and on a lower temp to REALLY soak up all of the flavor.
  6. Add half of the bamboo shoots – the small can was deceiving, but I like a better balance of the veggies in the dish and prefer the most broccoli since it soaks up the flavors magnificently and is my daughter’s favorite veggie.
  7. I could afford to go a bit sweeter and spicy, I think my daughter can handle a bit more heat.
  8. Flavor was about a 4.6 because it was just waaaaaay too subdued, but I could tell when done right that third time, will be a staple this winter.

By the third time, I will also revert back to using brown rice as well – or find a great vegan naan recipe.

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I just skimmed through a few of my old blogs and it warmed my heart to review the state I was in back when I first began this blog. It is a beautiful thing when you can look back and chart your growth, current and possibly continued struggles from that point in time, but also the success.

Since that initial blog post of me introducing myself, I have basically done all those things and more. It has been quite the thing to keep positive and forward moving with everything this year has birthed. The CV, fires from the Amazon, Australia, Hawaii, and all over California. Locust plagues. A shift in the focus of sex-trafficking, the racial climate (that has been in existence since the founding colonizers took over this land, but people are just now talking about it and its real effects all of the sudden), & holding people and businesses accountable for general NGAF. Dual storms over Texas. Coin shortages. Clorox wipes being wiped off the planet during the time we all need them most. Folks grabbing up all of the toilet paper, baby wipes, bread, and pasta. Many people loosing their jobs and businesses. An election with two candidates with supporters on each side hurling insults and seeming “evidence” of the other candidate having historical ties of various “ist” and “ism” communities. This is about 1/8 of everything that has and is being disrupted right now.

I am doing the very best that I can do to stay focused and doing exactly what I need to do to stay aligned with this forward momentum. I am looking forward to birthing a few of these projects I am working on mentally & in my lab, out into the universe. One hint, several of these have to do with writing ;).

I start another cleanse next week and I look forward to continuing on into our THIRD YEAR of the CHALLENGE page’s monthly exercises. I have also added some weekly cardio, that I plan on turning up this week as well. Looking to pair a cleaning of my internal (fasting/cleanse), physical (upping the CHALLENGE ante), & mental (writing, KonMarie the home, set up home office), for maximum results in them individually, collectively and beyond.

Also, our early start home schooling! 2 years early according to the state I live in, but I think a super slow start, early, makes sense with how my child engages with her world. I am surely looking forward to more art, lesson plans, scaffolding, mini-projects, science and math.

This is reading a bit like a check list of accomplishments, current events, and current projects – but after reviewing my posts from 2 years ago, being able to look back at something like this is very heart warming. And I always, always, think about the fact – that if you do not write your own story, others will. And it is IMPOSSIBLE to write another person’s story FOR them, no matter how well or long you have know them.

Most folks in your life, you simply have a few pictures of moments you recall of them. Others that may have been in your life for longer or more deeply, they may have a commercial or two. Some more inner circle – family, loved ones, siblings, parents, spouses, may have an episode. The only person that can do justice of retelling your motion picture, with behind the scenes footage, biography accuracy, and direct quotes is you. So every word, every click, every utterance via lips or fingertip – is me documenting my journey. It is about time we all told our stories, while we are living them to maintain the accuracy and passion of it all.

So here is to an explosive month and the synergy manifested from each of my concurrent focus areas!

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Push Up Challenge: Day.3


So far here are the totals for this month:

Squats: 95  | Push ups / Arm Raises: 6!

*So, my fiance just told me that I have not been doing real push ups!  My arms are bowed too wide & not closer to my chest.. I am stunned, because that means that I cannot do a real push up *sigh* 

Well, here is to trying to learn the basics again.  Learning something new every day.

>Respectfully submitted<<     ~Mai

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August’s Squat Challenge was a success and my booty is 1,500 squats stronger!¬† My daughter even joined a number of days and completed over 100 squats with me on her own volition!¬† Such a beautiful secondary gain to being active and making the effort is the spark that others are able to draw on; our children, family, and friends.

I started doing challenges earlier this year and this one I just reached out and asked a few people if they wanted to join in with me.  A staggering 10 people completed the challenge with me yesterday, and as of today Рthe group I created to house the monthly challenges has 23 members.  I am so ecstatic to have such a large group of supporters and accountability partners!

I needed to be sure that I could post daily on FB before I jumped back on here, and I think for this challenge, I will also challenge myself to be sure to post on my blog in tandem with my FB posts.  

So cheers to another challenge… another day… another month… another opportunity to perfect myself, gain increased strength, focus on my health, and refine my level of discipline.¬† If you decided to join in, comment and let me know how you are doing.¬† First post tomorrow will break down the image you see below.

>Humbly & Respectfully submitted<<       ~Mai

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Squat Challenge | Day.11

So, the squat challenge is underway, Day.11 and 550 squats down!  We are doing 50 a day for 30 days and I am loving how much support there has been as well.  I invited three people to do it and there are about eight doing it with me, and several people caught onto a few other people Рso there is like an extended squatting network going on right now!  I absolutely LOVE IT! 

I have actually already begun thinking about out / my September challenge and about half of the current “challengers” are going to continue the journey with me.¬† The plan is to actually add another challenge on, but continue doing the current challenge as well.¬† This will serve as sort of a foundation so I can stay active. My goal to to maintain my level of activity and gradually build it up, as to not overwhelm myself and make it seem like it is a chore.¬† Also, I learned from my 90-day challenge that when I do not have an active challenge going on, it is SO HARD to stay motivated, so I pretty much just halted all exercises once that concluded in April.

Anywho, I look forward to seeing the progress through these next weeks and next months really, as I add more things in.

Forever evolving.

>Humbly submitted<<    ~Mai


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8.1.18 | New 30-day challenge!

So, I have been on a hiatus, I took some time off of social media as I do periodically and it was great while it lasted!

Now, I am back on & am jumping into another challenge & have some new recruits joining with me.  I will most likely try to record and upload daily for accountability purposes & so I can look back and see my personal growth / journey.

If anyone else wants to join us, my friends, family and I will be dong 50 squats a day.  Any time, and way, any method, as long as it is daily and you do at least 50.  I am going to start out really simple with basic squats & do as much as I can in the a.m. before I shower & go to work, and only do what I have left over when I get back from work.  Honestly, the goal is to get all 50 done at the beginning of the day.

I am definitely going to stretch tonight, make sure I am limber again.  I fell ALL the way off after my last 90-day challenge and am still psychoanalyzing myself how I can be SO DISCIPLINED once whatever innate on-switch is turned on, and completely apathetic when the switch is off.  Do I have to actually challenge myself, compete with myself, in order to reach my goals?  Not quite sure, but I am still mulling it over to make sure I am getting the most out of this life by understanding and figuring myself out as I continue to evolve.

T-Minus 7 hours until day #1…

~Humbly submitted *Mai*


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I’ll be back soon!

Housekeeping, Gender reveals, travels, & much more.¬† Working on a master plan and will fill in the details shortly ūüôā



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Like a ton of bricks

I am literally just waking up from being in a horrible fog.  When I tell you I felt like I had a HORRIBLE case of malaria the last 36 hours, I WISH I was exaggerating. 

I felt like I’d gotten a cold, because Tuesday at work I was sneezing, nose running & clogged up, I was tired, and had a slight headache.¬† Figured it could also just be my allergies flaring up with the weather being all over the place.

Tuesday night was worse.. Everything exacerbated and I also randomly got an earache pretty badly in my left ear.  I literally kept a piece of garlic in my ear the whole night.  But I was slowly getting worse.  

In the morning when my fiance got off his graveyard shift, he told me NOT TO go to work if I was feeling like last night (I think he could see it in my face).  I said I was just going to try, I HATE missing work and feeling like I am leaving more for others to do, especially if it is not pre-planned. 


Went to work and from the moment I got in the car and drove there, I knew it was a bad decision.  My head began pounding & I was at full migraine now.  I had no appetite, my jaw, my neck, my face, my eyes, even my teeth hurt.  Where was all of this coming from? My co-worker immediately commented on how I did not look well.  Damn, second person cannot be wrong.  Tried to push through as there were two things that definitely needed to get done today & I was able to do that.  Not even an hour into work, I had to tell my boss I felt horrible & she suggested that I leave & take care of myself. 

Clocked out & when I got to the car, I just sat there in the warmth because I was soooo cold and I was also light-headed and almost in a fog, I was not happy about driving home in that state.  I told myself to drive slowly and I will be ok.  Made it home and shivering, got to my front door.  I ripped off my clothing, put on jammies, and robe, and put the scarf back on, put on my long thick socks and climbed under all the blankets.  I lay there shivering trying to fall asleep for over a hour.  I was shaking uncontrollably, and with all those layers, STILL unable to get warm.  Could fall asleep because my face was hurting and my head was pounding.  It was very miserable.  I finally fall asleep at some point and lay in the dark room all day, only up to use the bathroom & sat up to drink water.  I could not eat, each time I reached for the banana I opened up that morning, I felt like I was going to upchuck & had to put it right back down. 

This horrible cycle repeated until 8pm & I finally forced myself to stay up for a few minutes and walked over to the couch, where I laid back down & 1/2 interacted with my daughter.¬† She seemed confused as she looked at me laying there in the dark.¬† Not holding and hugging her like I always do.¬† Couldn’t tell her how weak I felt, how my body seems to have a mind of its own, how mommy does not want to pass to her WHATEVER this is plaguing my body.

Finally got up the strength to eat half a bowl of food I had to coach my fiance through making & send hopefully a coherent email to supervisor I would not be in the next day.  Shortly thereafter, I made my way back to bed to sleep through the night until almost noon today.

The migraine, face pain, earache, and chills have seemed to subside and I am just left with a headache, clogged nose, bouts of sneezing, and general fatigue.  Hopefully I will continue to get better through the day and will probably take another nap here shortly.  I serious had not felt this bad w/ all of these symptoms since I had malaria during my travels in Meritah (Afrika).  I am so thankful the worst has seemed to pass & looking forward to getting back to myself.

>Respectfully submitted<<    ~Mai


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Interesting reads today

Careful what you put in your mouths. ūüė®

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#Igot5onit99 | DAY 99 COMPLETE!!!


Such an amazing feeling that I completed this, three months of shutting down excuses and just doing it.  Listening to my body those 5 times when I just was not able to do it those days.

Awwww, it just feels so amazing.

Also finally got in touch with a woman I’d met on my travels to Meritah (Africa) and we had a long, amazing, and long-overdue catching up session.¬† Hopefully, we will get to link up later this year in person as well.¬†

Well, nothing like a warm shower to “consummate” the closing of this challenge.

Next challenge to begin in: 35 days!

2018 = 5 million!!!

Second half of challenge totals:

  • 840¬†each¬†of:¬†
    • push ups
    • squats
    • calf raises
    • (seconds) holding plank
    • (seconds) holding yoga pose
  • 330¬†minutes stretching
  • 210¬†minutes deep breathing


  • 1482¬†push-ups
  • 1480¬†squats &¬†620¬†seconds holding seated squat
  • 390¬†plank rotations
  • 1080¬†seconds holding forearm plank
  • 1260+ seconds holding yoga pose (Tittibhasana)
  • 1100¬†calf raises
  • 425¬†minutes of deep breathing
  • 380¬†minutes of stretching

>>Respectfully submitted & Always thankful<<    ~Mai

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#Igot5onit99 | Day.98!!!

OMG, tomorrow is the FINAL day of my 99-day challenge.  Today was successful, workout completed & we also go to head to Balboa Park for the Earth Day celebration.  Baby girl got some great sun and danced away to a several live bands.

We wound down the rest of the evening & watched a movie we hadn’t seen before, so all-in-all, it was a successful day.¬† Looking forward to buttoning up this challenge & feeling the accomplishments of my hard work, as well as transition into another push towards balance, but this time, focusing on my diet.¬†¬†

See you all on the other side.  #Last24 #Igot5onit99 #DangThatsALotOfSquats!


2018 = 5 million!!!

Second half of challenge totals:

  • 820¬†each¬†of:¬†
    • push ups
    • squats
    • calf raises
    • (seconds) holding plank
    • (seconds) holding yoga pose
  • 310¬†minutes stretching
  • 200¬†minutes deep breathing

Totals for day 96/99:

  • 1460¬†push-ups (+2 for the ‚ÄúLevel up‚ÄĚ #1)
  • 1460¬†squats &¬†620¬†seconds holding seated squat
  • 370¬†plank rotations (+20 for the ‚ÄúLevel Up #2)
  • 1060¬†seconds holding forearm plank
  • 1240+ seconds holding yoga pose (Tittibhasana)
  • 1080¬†calf raises
  • 395¬†minutes of deep breathing (+20 for the ‚ÄúLevel Up #3)
  • 360¬†minutes of stretching

>>Respectfully submitted & Always thankful<<    ~Mai